Be strong

Tough times ahead ...
For the past 2 weeks mum have been warded in CGH thrice for her bloated stomach.. And she's currently still in CGH...
Diagnosed as stuck intestine which could be caused by her cancer cells and accordingly to the Doc, the cells are spreading..
Based on what the doc said, there is no remedy to cease the stomach from getting bloated again so even if my mum gets discharged soon, chances are the same issue will occur and she will need to be warded again.
Mum is already scared of going back to CGH... fear of going on drip, fear of waiting for 12 hrs before getting a ward.

Today Mum told me that she feels that she have already had a good life.. being able to see bro & I start our own families and have children of our own.. For now, she says that she doesn't want to be a burden to us and that for the last leg of her life, she doesn't want to suffer till the very end. Heartbroken to hear that...
Gotta alway reassure her that she will never ever be a burden to Bro & me...

I feel that I've let my mum down... I always wanted her to stay with me when I have my own place as i have a very very close relationship with her and yet.. that did not materialize.. No one to blame but to blame situations and ultimately myself cos situation can be resolved and i blame myself for not resolving the situations..

I wish that I can turn back time  but i can't.