and the treatment begins...

And today marks the 1st Chemotherapy session for my mum..
Its going to be an every wed routine for 3 weeks follow by a week of rest. repeat follow by CT scan and a visit to Doc to review whether the therapy helps. This is most prob gonna be a long long process till..
For now, I just hope that my mum doesn't get too much side effect from the treatment esp when I doubt my Dad can take good care of my mum. I wish my Dad can be more proactive and supportive towards my mum during this period of time..
My dad is a good man but one needs to know the role of a husband especially when your partner is battling a life threatening illness.  

Truth hurts

And we were informed that my mum is at least at the 3rd stage of cancer... Mum was told by the doc that treatment will not be able to cure her.. treatment merely delay the cancer from growing/spreading... I can see that mum was shocked and her eyes were watery.. I asked the Doc in English what is the estimated life span of mum knowing that it is at least stage 3 now and was told abt a year... I'm not sure whether my mum understands and I really dunno how to break the news to her.. I know that she is feeling very negative now.. everything happened so quickly.. From a strong woman to now, my mum gotta hold on to me when she walks... I'm not feeling any optimistic either but I gotta be positive to motivate my mum...
Further bad news that Mum had a fall at home yesterday. I know I can't really depend on my dad to really look after my mum.. Gotta look for alternative source of help to make sure that my mum is well taken care of esp during her course of treatment..
Tues gonna meet the oncologist for the CT scan review and I'm praying that the cancer have not spread to other critical organs.

dark days

Everyone will go thru a period of time where their love ones will get hit by certain illness.. its only a matter of when..
And unfortunately it is now my time to experience my beloved mum being hit by the silent killer, cancer.
Pancreatic Cancer to be specific.
For those who know me well enough, you will know that I am very close to my mum. The news from the doc really hit me hard when they were doing the scope to examine the growth. I kept thinking why is this happening to my mum.. my mum is such a good person so why her? I felt really helpless and was actually fighting back tears when I see my mum looking so weak in the ward after her scope. But I gotta be strong and be the pillar with positive energy to support my mum. My mum was only told of her condition after the lab result which was last week and she went all quiet after that. As strong as she tried to portray a positive image, I knew that she is very sad inside out. Pains me to see her this way.
We are going to see the oncologist on Tues and probably get an update on her status and follow up treatments. For now, I pray that my mum is not in the advanced stage of cancer and really hope that the chemo treatment can cure her.
Mum, we will be fighting the battle with you all the way. Just don't give up.

20 mins a day!

1st Jun & I am trying to cultivate a daily habit of spending 20mins of my personal time at night to do some online study/research. So day 1 done!

And so I've said goodbye to my Sat Morning usual cycling routine :( and instead, I've decided to use sat morning to bond with my gal. Experience is totally different.. Not much sweat or calories burnt but the quality time spent with Naomi is priceless... Nowadays I'm just looking forward to spending every sat morning with Naomi and have lotsa outdoor fun.. dun wan Naomi to be a shopping mall kids.

P.S : Meanwhile I am still trying to figure a weekly slot, probably nite time(i guess? ..) to do some hardcore cycling. :)