I missed you so much...

Every now & then, I think of my mum... and sometimes I ask myself why I'm able to manage my emotions pretty well.. and I think I know why.. For the past years, I've seen my mum gone from a healthy, strong & independent Hakka woman to a frail and weak woman. I've seen her suffer... I'm sure my mum could handle the physical pain... but I think its the mental pain that's hurting my mum real deep. Seeing mum passing away peacefully on the 24th Aug actually makes me feel relieved.. relieved that mum no longer needs to suffer.. Mum doesn't like to be frail and dependent on others.. Mum hates the urine bag, Mum hate it that she can't walk on her own anymore..

Ma, I miss you...
Weekends feel different now... Going back to Pasir Ris feels different now... I miss all the things that you've done for me... all the things you've done for Naomi & Nathaniel... and I wished that I had more time with you before you passed away...