dark days

Everyone will go thru a period of time where their love ones will get hit by certain illness.. its only a matter of when..
And unfortunately it is now my time to experience my beloved mum being hit by the silent killer, cancer.
Pancreatic Cancer to be specific.
For those who know me well enough, you will know that I am very close to my mum. The news from the doc really hit me hard when they were doing the scope to examine the growth. I kept thinking why is this happening to my mum.. my mum is such a good person so why her? I felt really helpless and was actually fighting back tears when I see my mum looking so weak in the ward after her scope. But I gotta be strong and be the pillar with positive energy to support my mum. My mum was only told of her condition after the lab result which was last week and she went all quiet after that. As strong as she tried to portray a positive image, I knew that she is very sad inside out. Pains me to see her this way.
We are going to see the oncologist on Tues and probably get an update on her status and follow up treatments. For now, I pray that my mum is not in the advanced stage of cancer and really hope that the chemo treatment can cure her.
Mum, we will be fighting the battle with you all the way. Just don't give up.